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2007-07-21T15:41:00.001-07:00

It has been a long time since I blogged.

Have been pretty busy with work lately...4 to 5 shifts a week. It is really tiring working...especially as a chef, u have to stand whole day...by the end of 4 days, my heels hurt...and u just feel like sitting down all day...4 to 5 shifts a week is enough for me to struggle through a week...LOL..and when friday comes, it is hallelujah..

Anyway, Jean will be finishing exams this coming tuesday and her placement in Limbang will be from the 10th september till 5th october.
She will be doing 4 weeks of electives in singapore and I think she will be paying 200 sing dollars for a month hospital accomodation which includes bills. Aishin etc did their electives in singapore and the feedback is really good and encouraging...they learn a lot of things in singapore..so I hope to do my electives in singapore too in the future...Not that I do not want to go back to my hometown and do electives...I hope to learn more in better hospitals if I can and singapore is really good...

Jean will be coming to teach me OSCE this coming week...wahaha...cuz I m really scared of OSCE in the coming third year...not easy...two people I know of had failed their history taking which is a really hard skill to learn.. now that Jean has finished exam n will be quite free, it would be cool to get her to help me....

My hair has grown quite long and Cheryl has agreed to cut for me...as in her guinea pig...I will tell her how I want my hair to be like of course..LOL...

I also wanna learn how to bake cheesecake...gonna try it in a month time...LOL...

I can't wait for esther to come..just wondering when will her unconditional offer letter arrive...and I think term starts on the 17th sept...plus I heard from Cindy that quite a lot of flights have been fully booked...

Actually, I read mummy's email on CT scan...I think tumours can be checked by blood test...probably by looking for certain tumour markers...depends what type of tumour is suspected...
but what we learnt in medic school is tat ct scans shouldn't be done unless necessary or important...cuz one ct scan equals to 4.5 years of background radiation.

Anyway, I wanna trim my hair now..so thick...

ciaoz

fish-cutter

2007-05-31T08:10:00.001-07:00

Haha..

It takes ages to look for a job and when u look for it..it somehow seems so hard to get one.

But when u didn't even have to try, but depend on God's provision, the job just come falling down from the sky.

Last year, I looked hard for my job but couldn't get one. I even went all over the city to give out my CV, but there wasn't any reply at all. Then, I tried joblink as well, but the jobs were at awkward places and also there weren't many jobs compared to this year's joblink.

Either people are not looking for jobs, or there are more job opportunities this year...or maybe, I have become an expert with jobs...hahahaha

Anyway, there is a shifts problem in my working place because we have too many workers and too few shifts (not really that few la but cannot accomodate so many people).
Then, I smsed my boss a few weeks ago telling him to help me put down my shifts on the shift table (cuz I know that the shifts table comes out on monday and I have to put mine down before everyone else fights for it and I have nothing left.) on monday cuz my next shift would be on thursday morning and I know that if I come on thursday morning, I will be left with bad shifts.

LOL...my boss said he was not at work and would put my shift down the next morning.

But when I went to work on thursday morning, I was shocked that my shifts weren't put down and I was left with bad shifts for that week...LOL..

Either my boss have forgotten or he does not put me as priority anymore, meaning he doesn't care if I have shifts or not.

That thought kind of burdened me for a while thinking that I have to look for a new job. But another hand, I thought it was better if I clarified with my boss cuz I know that he is a trustworthy man. He never did fly my aeroplane before and he did promised me full-time shifts during the summer during easter. He even promised to make me his deputy fish-cutter and even said that he is glad that my course has 3 more years and I can work for him for quite some time. He said that by the time I graduate, he would have a few branches...LOL...

Anyway,

this whole week, he was like asking me when are my exams and on monday, he said he is going to put me on full-time the week after my exam.

Today, he clarified with me again about working full-time (dunno why he needed to clarify so many times..guessed he wants to 'fire' somebody gua)..and he said he will give me any amount of shifts I want...5 shifts the minimum and 6 shifts if I want...any amount basically...
Then, he went about counting my summer months....'mid-june, july, august, mid-sept..good...'

Guessed he was pretty happy that he can go for a long break of having somebody like me cutting fish...hahaha

He told me before (when the manager was around before he had his mental breakdown) that I had talent...and he taught me twice..and the second time, I could cut the fish like perfect. He said none of his chefs knows how to cut the fish that properly and beautifully...

so flattering...lol..

He just wants me to cut the fish la basically...so if I didn't have that talent, he wouldn't want me to work full-time rite? Haha

God gave me some talent in life that help me to secure jobs...hahaha...

signing off,
4.10pm
fish-cutter

welfare director.... :-s

2007-02-28T17:19:00.000-08:00

Walao..

I went to MASSOC Annual General Meeting to vote for Shen Wei...But walao....I turned out to hold some post in return.

What I got was: Welfare Director

which is like the 5th highest position in Massoc, after President, vice president, secretary, and treasurer.

The thing is that I was quite shocked when people actually nominated me as secretary!!! But I didn't manage to get that position becuz I was competing with the past year assistant secretary.

Anyway, I kena the position and tried to pull out...But after talking to Jean, she said better take the opportunity cuz it will look good on my CV..plus it will help me to grow in certain areas which doesn't have to be spiritually...also, can learn more things...

Somemore, the president is ShenWei and he is my cell member!?!? I never thought he will be president...LOL...and most of the committee member, I sort of know them and half of us belong to LCCC....
Still...Shenwei doesn't look like a president but he does possessed leadership qualities and I wonder how it will be like working with him...

Also, two days ago, I had an 'assessment' on taking patient's history. One tutor, 3 students (including me) and 3 different stimulated patients. My friday rounds at hospital always had bad experiences with taking patient's history and I seriously had no confidence in myself...I thought that I was doomed for this patient taking history and considered being the first to take a history from the first stimulated patient.

But, Lucie and Art grabbed the opportunity in being the first and second to start..so I am third...Plus the tutor told me that since I am third, I have to 'consolidate' everything that the first and second student did 'wrong' and try to better my taking history when it comes to the third stimulated patient.

Lucie was very good and the tutor went about saying :''very good....excellent history taking skills...well done...''

also, we have to say our 2 strengths and one thing which needs to be improved. Also, the tutor will give feedback which I have to 'consolidate'...and the patient and us have to give our feedback and what we think about the history taking skills.

Art was ok...he didn't do so well...partly becuz the patient came in with a sllightly more different background. He had to pause quite a few times cuz he ran out of questions to ask...

Then it was my turn...LOLs...my patient came in with indigestion....before the 'interview' with the patient, I talked to Art and Lucie about what I should say...and they gave some suggestions which I have already kind of had in my mind...but it was comforting to hear them give suggestions...

Then, the tutor told me to go and call my patient in and start the 'interview'..

Everything went so smoothly that I could not believe my ears...

The tutor was very very impressed and in fact couldn't stop praising me...she said that I had excellent interviewing techniques and I used 'reflecting' technique which the other 2 students didn't use and she said she liked it very much cuz it shows that I was listening to the patient. She also said that I was patient-centred and that I showed empathy quite a lot. Also, I was listening and connecting questions instead of asking questions in separate categories (which we were taught to do)...and so everything was a smooth flow.

She was asking the students what did I say that make the whole conversation flowed smoothly and they gave feedback. Things that I said which they think were good and tactful...etc...

I was quite shocked that I did well...the tutor kept saying very very good techniques, very excellent history-taking, 8 minutes in total and it was just nice etc..good reflecting techniques, good empathy-showing..

well done to conclude everything.

I was shocked...haha...and this 'assessment' did let me know that I do possessed some strengths which I thought I did not have. In fact, I was so focused with the patient that I even forgot that people were watching me taking the history (which was good in that sense cuz Art kept staring at us once a while when he was taking the history)..

N the 2 students were telling me that I did a good history taking and that it was better than theirs (partly cuz I had to consolidate the mistakes they made also la)

Anyway,

glad that it went well..

I am going to Massoc ball...no choice...am a Massoc committee now...LOL...somemore, the old committee are going to give us our certificates this saturday during massoc ball. Haihh...

at least from what I know, there isn't that many activities till the end of the year...but first term of every year, there is a really packed massoc schedule...and that will come and past like Jean said..

I asked Jean if it was her, would she go for it. She said looking back, she regretted not taking up any curricular activities and post. She would go for it if it was her as long as it is not fourth year. So, I guessed I will give it a go for my CV sake and also for experience sake...

Anyway, I m glad that I got a B for my SSC....wakaka...but a C for my stolen SSC...(2 SSCs altogether)...C...grrr...it was so close to a B...2 marks to a B!!!! EEEEissssshhh...so close...

Sushi shop trying to cut shifts which I am most gladly to do so...haha...and I guessed it is better than the cleaning job..at least I don't have to get up so early in the morning anymore and can concentrate so well in lectures now...hahaha...

Cannot remember what else I wanna blog..

gtg...also, I won't blog so much anymore cuz of restrained time...lol..unless I have things to update about myself

signing off..
1am

work 2

2007-01-28T11:32:00.000-08:00

Woo..

I got my salary and no tax deducted...WOOO....

Thank God I am not doing any cleaning anymore..hehe..and the boss likes me a lot...haha..well..at least that's what I think..

The last time I worked,

my boss told me that after making all the packs, he wants me to package all the wasabi peas into small plasic bags...mundane and boring thing to do...and he said that would be the last work for the day (which I think he meant that I can finish for the day??)...but then, after that, everything suddenly became so busy...he suddenly had so many customers and I had to make sushi again...

He was like so grateful..(I guessed he regretted promising me the wasabi peas was the last job..haha)and he kept saying thank you when I gave him the sushi packs..

The thing I like about working here compared to Yo is that it is more relaxing...at least I get to design my own sushi platter...in Yo, I have to follow the stupid pictures on the menu and there are so many complicated platter in Yo...

haha..being a pioneer of a shop is a 'proud' thing..haha..even the floorstaff is trying to tao wo huan xin...as in be good to me...cuz the boss likes me..and he isn't very good + still training as chef..so he is very nice to me...

Also..my pay is 5.50 and not 5,,,haha..

signing off..
8pm

work

2007-01-25T05:23:00.000-08:00

I don't know what to blog about..lol..

Becoming a floorstaff isn't easy..not to say that I am working as one.

Yesterday, I heard the manager (Tom) asked whether we were around to see the first day Joyce (a floorstaff) was fired. That was her first day at work. No wonder I did no see her anymore.

Then, a while later, Yanis (was a floorstaff but then work as a chef) asked me if I heard what Tom just said...I said no...He asked me if I knew a floorstaff called Yancey(not to sure how to spell it). I said no...then he said that Tom just said that he wants to fire this person.

I guessed becuz they are not very good floorstaff? In fact, it is very hard to be a floorstaff compared to a chef.

So, I asked Yanis if I will get fired too...since people get fired anytime..

He said:''Oh...You won't get fired..Simon (The boss) said that you are good.'' It's quite impossible to fire me too cuz I trained the newcomers who come in for work and Simon praises me for being a good teacher + he was impressed. Also, last week, when he told me to work alone in the morning (well..I work alone all the time anyway), I had to prepare lots of packs etc. But I finished everything (at a minimum of 30+ packs) in one and half hours...He said..''stephanie, you are fast!'' Flattering...

and he goes around telling his friends that I am a 2nd year medical student, first-aider, worked in Yo before and makes EXCELLENT sushi. Flattering....

I have to thank Yo for 'training' me as a chef in the past...if not, where comes the good sushi making skills...even better than the boss himself and the boss also claims that I make better sushi than him. Plus the boss did his sushi training from a Japanese.

I really think it was the cleaning job which made me tired all the time in lectures...Ever since I stopped cleaning last week, the dozing-off-in-class stopped, the naps stopped.....I have never been so attentive in lectures in my life...so I am pretty glad that I have quitted cleaning and start a more relaxing job...relaxing cuz the boss isn't that demanding...

When I accidentally mixed up the ingredients in the roto(sushi), he said nvrmind...well..he didn't care...also, when I accidentally dropped the noodle box on the floor (Thank God the noodle was still intact in the box)...Simon just said be careful..Unlike Yo, when I dropped the sashimi on the floor...wah...the head chef's expression totally changed and was staring at me throughout....LOL....

At least no more customers staring at me make sushi..which I dislike..gives me stress...

Cannot imagine what the head chef at Yo would say if she knows that I am working elsewhere...she told me b4 I quitted that she trained me so hard and now I am not working for her anymore...lol...and now, I have used that skills elsewhere instead of Yo...
hmm..traitor..but anyway...haha...cannot be helped..if only they had treated me well then I would have returned..

Chef suits me anyway cuz I don't talk much..I guessed the floorstaff were fired cuz they could not talk well..comparing myself with the angmos..I am not as good as them in sweettalking the customers to buy the products.

Anyway, when I quitted my cleaning job, I thought for a week on how I am going to tell my supervisor that I am quitting..Not only that, hopefully, my supervisor would allow me to come back (just in case my new job doesn't work out..which isn't true cuz now the boss and manager likes me)...

But yea...I finally thought of the best way out the night before I have to tell my supervisor.

''Teresa, I have something for you.''

she looks down and was so HAPPY (and I mean it..she was genuinely happy) when she saw a box of chocolates (I got the chocolates from christmas outreach anyway + I dun really like to eat chocolates)..

stunned...

''What for?''

''ermm..actually, today is my last day of work.''

she went awwww...and said...''u dpn't have to do this..but why cannot u work anymore?''

cuz I have hospital attachments and have to wake up early in the morning.

''It's alright...come back when u want the job again. I will give you work.''

wow...

Also, I had to hold her hands as if I am so close to her..that was becuz I realised over time that she likes the sense of touch...cuz I have seen other cleaners kind of holding her hands and she was like happy...

before I left..she asked why I had to go to hospitals..

''cuz I am a medical student.''

She was stunned and went 'awww..'

I left..and she spoke to the security guard telling him how nice I was..and that I am a medical student..said that it was my last day of work and I was so nice to give her a box of chocolates.

So, my plan worked well...for people like my supervisor..it will work of course...but not everybody will fall for it..haha

Then wee Leon asked me about it a week later...I told him what I did and he said that it was a good stategy..think he was kinda impressed...haha

anyway, I have to go for lecture...

signing off
1.51pm

christmas pressies

2006-12-29T15:20:00.000-08:00

Christmas pressies and a belated birthday pressie all the way from Singapore!!! Thankssss a lot Andrew for taking the trouble to send the pressie over to Blandford Grove!!

All pressies were cool and nice! Like them all la...

Woke up in the morning when Lynda said..."hey..did u see a brown package on your table from Andrew..''

I was so surprised and shocked....lol...to find that Andrew sent over pressies..hehe :-)

BIG THANKS!! n glad that the pressie is white in colour!! Well...it's quite obvious that I wear white all the time la...haha

But thanks for remembering that in mind...

From pic,

fluffy shoes from Wee Leon

Hair pins and lip gloss (Britney spears) from Jean

Lip gloss (Clinique) from Min Jung

Ear rings (?!?!?!) from Priya and Satish

Hillsong cd from Julian

Ferrero Rocher from Kyle (but have eaten all so it's not in the pic)..but the Rose chocolates is still 'alive' and 'well'

quality sweets from Julee (was given rather randomly)

Minstrels chocolate from Serene... she also gave some nice looking cookie from Ainsleys.

White T-shirt from Andrew.

and all the christmas cards from people!!

Anyway,

signing off..

11pm

min jung

2006-12-28T18:46:00.000-08:00

Today went to Min Jung's house....

wahman...her place so posh...James Baillie Park..

Got kitchen + toilet + bedroom all in one...so geng....

Found out quite a few things that I never knew about her...her dad + brother are doctors...wow...I didn't know that..

Also, she said that we can go to Korea and visit her in Seoul...go for one month also can...lol...
She said she has a lot of rooms in her house so can give free accomodation + free food (sometimes..well..she said can everytime too...since Lynda requested...lol...haha..) + free tour around Seoul...wahhhh...

She also said that can afford to bring us to eat at a posh restaurant for free too..but one time only...haha

Anyway,

From friendster...can see my Edinburgh photos...

It was a really cool trip...get to know my cell members well...(btw, the two indians are non-christians..they are Jean's friends)..

Know WL n Julian better...

Didn't get to fellowship much with Jean though...

Poor WL has to drive us all over the place...

and haha...on our way back to Leeds....some stupid nothing-better-to-do policeman stopped our car...

He said he wants to have a 'chat' with WL...

apparently...I think the policeman was too BORED that he randomly catches poor drivers on the road....give some stupid excuse....for eg...for our case, the policeman said that WL was driving on the middle lane and that he should be driving on the left lane instead...LOL!!!! Then, he said he wanted WL to blow into some thingy to test whether he drank alcohol....lol...thank God WL didn't take Whisky before the drive...

Well..WL never take alcohol since he accepted christ 10 over years ago anyway..

My internet connection has been a bit haywire lately...lol..

The smoked salmon Min Jung provided for lunch is so nice...man...also..the korean pancake...wahhhh...
Btw, for those who don't know this...she is Korean...

Internet sok liao...gtg then

signing off..
3am

acupuncture

2006-12-11T16:52:00.000-08:00

Haha...

I am doing acupuncture and chinese medicine for my SSC this year. It's interesting...though I still cannot see how effective can acupuncture be. Anyway, I learnt a few acupuncture points used for toothaches, headaches, insomnia...

and I took needles home...bleh...to practise...

It's not very painful....though I cannot really differentiate the so-called 'qi' with inflicted pain...haha

Can't wait to learn massaging this wednesday.

There...u can see the photos with the needle stuck in between my eyebrows..

anyway....

signing off..
1am

work

2006-12-05T05:17:00.000-08:00

Exams were over last week but was too lazy to blog..

Exams this time was pretty okay I guessed...hopefully can pass...

Thanks to WL who taught the upper limb and Jean for teaching me two nights before the exam...also to Julian who taught some stuff/genetics and Ryle for the bones...ahaha

I am still not sure if I should go back to Yosushi(YS for short in the future)..cuz I am quite scared of the head chef still even though she did changed some of her attitude towards my last two weeks of work.

Plus I am quite scared to learn how to make the big rolls and platter which are the few toughest skills of making sushi...aikss...

I forgotten all the decoration/colour of plates for the sushi etc...also...

they didn't actually gave me my pay slip, I mean they bank the money into my account but the money seems to be way less than what I should be getting...I heard from other workers there that there are many problems with their pay as well....these problems happen ever since the head chef and account manager took over when Valerie just quitted and went back to malaysia...Before that, YS was not this terrible I heard..

I m quite reluctant to sacrifice my saturday and walking in the bitter cold to YS....

and I may be taxed...and not able to claim back cuz I overworked the minimum pay for the week...

even if I do go back to work...I have to quit again in March..which won't make much difference because they will still take my name out of the computer system..

plus I look thru my worklist...quite a number of assignments due in early march...so m pretty scared...n also learning the lower limb which I heard is harder than the upper limb...

One saturday gone every week...that's quite a lot....some days sunday...

also...it's very stressful working there...everytime...a few days before work, I would already be thinking..''oh man...I have to go back to work on saturday/ I have to wake up at 8am...'' Everyday I am already waking up at 6am...if add another 8am on saturday...damn stressful and tired...

The head chef is so niao ji...dun think she will allow me to go back anymore if I don't go back this time...so...let's just pray that in summer, the head chef has changed...cuz I heard that she is a temporary one till YS has found a new head chef...
But at least, Janice can still work there in summer...it's not that hard getting a job there...it's just whether u have the endurance to suffer all the head chef's torments...

Me ler...I better make sure that I get the job at the accomodation office or the statistician job Jean had for her second year's summer...or maybe Ainsleys since Mei Shun has kind of tell me some tips in getting in...

I guessed I have made up my mind not to go back to YS...I shouldn't even have joined them in the first place...cuz it was since then I got taxed and all the trouble..plus it was a bit hard to cope with YS and studies at the same time...People studying on saturdays...where as me...working in YS....

signing off..
1.50pm

statistics exam, ssc 2.1, ssc 2.2 due this month..

Now I know why I am being taxed!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-17T06:26:00.000-08:00

After the 'enlightenment' from David, I know why I am being taxed..

He said that because I have worked for the company long-term, that's why I am being taxed..as in, we are taxed after working for a certain period of time.

Another thing is that I cannot claim back the tax...that's what he said...cuz I am a resident...

and he said that that's why the bank interest is being taxed...which explains why mine was also taxed...

siggghhh..

He said that it's not worth working as a cleaner anymore cuz he said that:
1) It's sacrificing my health..
2) He thinks it's not worth it since I am taxed..

and it's true...after doing some calculations....the tax is a total of one week's work!!! which means I work for a week for NOTHING!?!?!??!

OHMAN...

That's too much....

plus...it's tiring waking up at 5.30am everyday...

Maybe I should return to yo sushi since it's a newly started job and I guessed I am not taxed...
plus got tips and food....and skills...

I trust what David says cuz what he said fits the description I am in now....he also said the 22% tax correctly...

I will see how the cleaning job goes...until I get back into Yo sushi and thinks that I am pretty stable working in yo sushi, only then I will quit the cleaning which will probably be sometime around April?

cuz May and June is exam time...and I will be pretty stress...

Hopefully, I will be able to get the job that Jean worked as during her second year's summer...as a statistician if I am not mistaken...or even then, I hope to retain yo sushi...

sigghh....maybe find another cleaning job elsewhere...

WHATEVER!!

signing off..
2.30pm
Tax is so troublesome...and TAXING!!

why tax me????

2006-11-17T05:24:00.000-08:00

CRAP...

When I received a letter from the mainland tax and revenue office last week saying that I will be given a tax code and tat they will tax 22% of my salary...I was so afraid that it will happen....

Today, just received my salary...and my fears had been confirmed....

I WAS TAXED!!!! I have no idea why...Janice and Lynda were not taxed...

The only reason I can think of why I m being taxed is that I previously had two part-time jobs and they must have thought that I overworked the 20 hours limit. So, they implemented the tax code thingy on me!!! CRAP!!!

£30 gone!!! which means in a month, I lose £60!! Plus I dunno if I can claim back the tax or not...

crap!!

I better start looking for a new cleaning job, hopefully I can find one in the student union.....if working for the university, rather than for a company, I have less chances of being taxed...

Plus, I dun think my supervisor knows how to help me get back the tax....so I will probably pull thru till april and see if I can claim the tax...if can't, die la...all the money...
Have seen my supervisor unable to help the rest of my friends before with their tax...I believe that I will fall into the same fate...

One thing I have not said is that after lying to my head chef regarding my placement, I went back and gave them the uniform. The head chef made me promise her that I will come back to work after my 'placement' ends in 'early december'. She even winked to Lynda as a sign that I have promised and that Lynda is witnessed to the whole incident. The head chef even said that she will retain my information in yo sushi computer system so that I can come back and work in december. So, I told the head chef tat IF I do come back, I will call her in early december...

Right now, I am still in a dilemna on whether I should go back to yo sushi or not...

Maybe I will go back....

and if the cleaning job is pointless, as in I cannot get back my tax in april, then I will quit and continue with yo sushi (if not taxed) alone....cuz I believe I can adjust my shifts during exams...
and it's not worth working for cleaning when u cannot claim back £60 tax that is imposed every month....which means 6 months = £360 lost!!!

Right now, I am hoping to keep the job which has no tax....cuz tax is stupidly troublesome and hard to claim back!!

Of all the people I know, people who are being taxed, like Melvin and Meishun etc...they all said they have been taxed before but they could not be bothered claiming back because it's HARD to get it back + too MUCH trouble in getting back the tax...
I know of none who actually got back their tax...

even my china friend last time tried to claim her tax by going all the way to tax council....yet she failed to stop the tax from being deducted...
Another girl from poland who is working in the cleaning company now said that she was taxed initially and she tried for MORE THAN A YEAR before she actually managed to stop herself from being taxed + claim back her tax!!

I will probably only work in the cleaning company until september only!!

Plus they did not let me fill in the p45 form which enables us to get back the tax if we leave the company one day!! CRAP!!

I will look for the better alternative right now...Lord, give me insight....why on earth did u throw me into such a situation?!?!?

Maybe God is telling me that I should go back to Yo sushi....

aihhhh...

See how things goes...but I intend to remain in the cleaning company till april and see what happens..

signing off..
1.35pm...
why tax me????

verse of the day

2006-11-16T15:26:00.000-08:00

Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

birthday

2006-11-13T11:50:00.000-08:00

Hehe..

My birthday was quite a memorable one...

Thanks to all the people who celebrated it...

Thanks to my coursemates, I got a Christian Dior perfume (!!) and also to my surprise, a 1gb Kingston pendrive!!! Thanks to Julian for organising and for being so thoughtful!

Also,

Thanks to Julee for her body shop set consisting of body shampoo, body lotion etc....thanks to Lizzie for the pyjamas which looks like it is made of silk...thanks to Lynda for the erm....u know it...haha....Thanks to Janice for the scarf n mitten...thanks to my cell members (most of all!!) for the red scarf!!

Pretty pressies...I hope I didn't miss out anything...

I m so happieee...

Thanks to all who had sent me birthday messages whether it be thru friendster or sms!! Haha..and my parents sent me a birthday sms too... :-)

Also, I was so shocked to have my birthday cake at breakfast during encounter weekend in Milton Keynes. I thought Jean announced my birthday in front of everybody so that everybody will sing a birthday song only....wah...who knows..she told me to turn around...and WAHHH...got birthday cake behind me!! hehe...

Ok..have to go do work..

ciaoz..
signing off..
7.49pm

ahhh

2006-10-29T09:49:00.000-08:00

Ahhh...crazy...

I just posted my new entry...and when I viewed the page, the old entry is gone...woohoo...

No idea what's wrong with blogger...but glad that that entry is gone..

why cannot I delete the blog entry??

2006-10-29T09:45:00.000-08:00

CRAZZZYYY...

for some reason, I cannot delete the entry for the 'first post in so many days.'

I signed into my account yesterday to delete the entry...but there was something wrong with blogger.

Now, the post still appears on my blog but when I sign into my account, I cannot find the entry inside my account...
as in...the entry is missing in my account...THEN why on earth is the post still on my blog???????????????

Well...If I cannot delete the post...then probably that's the end of this blog...may have to delete the blog so that I can get rid of the entry for good...

sigh..

signing off..
5.50pm

work

2006-09-24T12:10:00.000-07:00

Duh...I m so lazy to update my blog lately.

No time...

A lot of work...scrutinised my timetable and realised that I have a lot of essays and exams to rush in my first term. So MOST PROBABLY in this first term, I won't have time to update my blog liao.

Have a written exam at the 24th Nov and a anatomy spot test (I hate this most!!) at the 1st of December.

So....conclusion is no time..

My second and third term is less hectic from what I see...

Another thing is that I wanted to quit Yo sushi...

BUT...

The head chef didn't scold me yesterday so I couldn't bring myself to tell her that I wanna resign. Also, she went home slightly earlier so by the time I realised, she already left! Couldn't get to tell her...

Anyway, I just work until I cannot stand it anymore (as in her staring and scoldings)...then I quit...and I have to go on holidays during october and november cuz it will be the most hellish months in my life...

Cuz the last week when I worked, the head chef scolded and 'humiliated' me like crazy....well..becuz I am too slow with sushi making + I made quite a lot of mistakes that time(I wonder why)....when the head chef is around, I feel extremely stressed...

AIYA...Now got 'leakage'...as in diarrhoea...

Gotta go toilet..

signing off..
8.20pm

haih

2006-09-10T03:16:00.000-07:00

*sweat*

Yesterday working at yo sushi was kind of hell....

I have never worked in such a busy environment before...and even resting for like 5 minutes can kena stared by the head chef.

The head chef expected me to work non-stop becuz the rest of the chefs were also working very hard. Is not that I dun want to work....I didn't have enough knowledge to be able to help....

After working for the day, I came back 'lifeless'...lolss...actually it's just the legs who refused to move....suan1 tong4...cuz of the 7 hours standing and no sitting...

and the head chef asked me what is my second job...

I said cleaner...

and she dare to say that cleaning must be harder than becoming a chef.

LOLSS...I would say that cleaning work is 10 times easier than a chef's work...

haihzzz...

last night, we went to Liz's house cuz she had a chocolate fountain and the chocolate is belgium chocolate somemore....bloody nice....but had to control the intake...

anyway,

signing off...
11.20pm

haven't updated for a long time

2006-09-04T16:34:00.000-07:00

Hmm...have not updated my blog for such a long time...didn't realise it...

Tomoro Mark is coming down to Leeds for a night. Haha....he will be staying in Yung Kit's room for the night lor...hope to bring him to bible study tomoro night if all goes well...

Oh yea...after all the hassles etc...I will be working at Yo sushi every saturday liao...*sobs*...I have no choice...they didn't give me a choice la....It's either I take it or leave it....so I will take the job in the meantime and see how things goes...

I didn't know the head chef had been trying to contact me...LOLS..

She left a voice mail and LOLSS...for some reason I could not access the voice mail...so I didn't know that I had a shift last week. I was uneasy that she did not call me for a week plus and so I went to look for her....
She told me she didn't like me anymore and didn't want me to work there....
...and she was not happy when I told her tat I can only work for 7 hours a week. She said that there is no such thing as 7 hours and workers are supposed to work from 8 to 10 hours...so she said too bad lo..I cannot work....

Thank God for the china girl whom I worked with came to interfere...

So..

after all the blablabla sorted out....I managed to get a saturday shift....LOLSSSSS

I guessed I need some time to re-establish myself again...HAIHHH...why these kind of things always happen to me....so soi....

Anyway,

I better go to bed liao..

Signing off..

12.40am

playin the guitar.

2006-08-27T13:36:00.000-07:00

I learnt how to play the guitar...

It's a really interesting instrument which I hope to master someday and play like Hao Ern.

I wish I could own a guitar cuz I can bring it whenever I go...

I had always wanted to learn how to play the guitar since I was form 3...when I see my friend bring his guitar to school and playing all the chinese songs...
It was like so amazing..

Lately, I had the chance to learn how to play.

When Lizzie was over at my place for a little while, I took Tze Way's guitar and asked Lizzie to teach me. She showed me the 4 main chords and with this 4 chords, I could play most of the songs.

After memorising this 4 chords on the spot, I was greedy for more...

I want to learn all the techniques.

Today, I asked Marcus to teach me some more chords and skills...
He is a good guitarist teacher...haha..
I learnt the 'sustaining method' and using the last finger for the D chord so that it sounds as if there is a variation...

All together I have learnt and memorised: G, D, C, E minor, E/B were the chords I learnt 2 days ago.
E major, E7, A major, A7 are the few new chords I have learnt n memorised today...hehe..

B major is a hard chord...will master that another time...

memorise 4 chords at a time now....dun be too greedy....haha

I hope to master the guitar better...my strumming has improved over the past 2 days...During the first day, I had problems strumming.
But today, strumming went very smoothly.

I enjoyed playing the guitar though I started learning 2 days ago. I seemed to be progressing quite well...and I can play the song 'in christ'...
hehe...

I hope to play more songs!! I wanna learn all the chords which has strokes in them.

Signing off..
10.10pm

working in Yo! Sushi..

2006-08-20T16:20:00.000-07:00

Talking about laziness...it has struck me down...haha...even blogging is so hard now...LOLSSS...

Feeling very tired now...Had to wake up at 8.30am this morning to go for a trial at Yo! sushi which is at the top floor of Harvey nichols.

I had literally been walking the whole day...walk to harvey nichols...made maki(sushi) for 3 hours...Thank God for Val who taught me how to make maki a few weeks ago...if it wasn't becuz of her, I may have been quite stuck today.
I made 6 kinds of maki...avogadro maki, salmon maki, tuna maki, asparagus maki, yellow melon(???) maki and cucumber maki. Not only that we have to memorise the colour of the plates and I got mixed up once...LOlsss...
Also learnt how to cook rice....

When I arrived, I was kinda praying that I will someone I know before I enter the building...cuz it was early and we have to enter thru the back of the building using a password which Val has told me earlier...

WOW...who knows I met Tom...he is one of the chefs of Yo! Sushi....Val introduced me to him two days ago when we went to Yo! Sushi..

Met the head chef and gosh..I think she is either a scottish or an Irish..cuz her accent is really hard to understand....

One incident was that I made the maki and after placing them in small plates, she told me to go around and put the maki on the conveyor belt...

I couldn't understand what she was saying. So I just stood in front of the converyor belt and put when I see empty spaces..

Then she bellowed :" DON'T JUST STAND THERE....MOVE AROUND AND PUT THE MAKI ON THE CONVEYOR BELT.."

I was like...''OOOO...so that's what u meant....haiyah...''

So had to quickly rush about doin stuff..

Earlier on before starting, she told me that I am on trial and am not allowed to eat anything...

Somehow, after the 3 hours trial, she told me to take a break...
and she said I could eat 5 dishes except cake!!! WOW!!! and she added saying that she will speak to me after I eat finish..

That is an indication that I had passed my trial and that I could work at Yo! Sushi!

So, I ate 2 dishes off the conveyor belt! Sashimi...tuna and salmon sashimi...so yummy man...
and also tempura pumpkin + fried rice...
then a little fruit dessert...

After eating, she told me that she was very happy with the maki I made and she said that she will check her rota and give me the shifts that she wants me to work...*GRINS* she said she will call me in 2 days....haha

I am finally working in Yo! Sushi....after such such such long of waiting....

Get to eat yummy food too!!!

hehe...

signing off..
12.35am

Ingleton waterfals

2006-08-12T13:53:00.000-07:00

My brother had croup..well, that's what the doctor in Miri diagnosed. I asked Paul today and he said could be croup too even though Joshua is a bit no more a kid to get croup...I checked my medical books...I cannot remember if fever is one of the symptoms...but Joshua symptoms sounded like croup...hmm...I will ask the paediatrician in church if I do see him...

Yea..Paul said that croup is scary....

I thank God that Joshua is big enuf to actually inform my parents that he has trouble breathing..cuz I think most kids would just dun care n assume that it will go away?? Lolss...yea...thank God that everything was ok after that...
I should read up more on croup...to think I have studied the respiratory system and not knowing croup...LOLSSS...I heard of it before though, but not actually knowing the symptoms and all...

Went to Ingleton Waterfalls today..

Ingleton Waterfalls is 1.5 hours drive from Leeds and the waterfalls walk was 4.5miles....wahman..it was a very tiring hiking but worth the view...lolsss...

Went with Paul n TW....Paul drove..so nice of him.

Haih...I tried to upload all the photos that I took at Ingleton Waterfalls..but dunno why blogger just simply refused to upload...these are all I managed before giving up...lolss..

sushi!!!! yum yum..

2006-08-09T03:44:00.000-07:00

Tze way brought sushi home for the past 2 days.

The best part is the peas.. I remembered the first time Valerie brought home peas, I ate the peas, including the skin!!!! I didn't know how to eat them...until people taught me how...Actually we are not supposed to eat the skin *blushed*...
I guessed common sense would have told u that the skin cannot be eaten becuz it's so tough + HAIRY...eee...

Ever since I learnt how to eat them, wow...they are so yummy!!! WL said it is a delicacy and it's very expensive...so hehe...I am so lucky to be able to eat them for the past two days....cuz TW brought home 2 'bottle' of peas...u can see the bottle below....

Got to eat loads of raw salmon and raw tuna...yum yum...so nice...

And I was pestering him for not bringing back more...cuz his boss asked him to take all (8 altogether) but he didn't...and he only took 2 packs yesterday...*sobs*... well, after he saw us (ken n me) eating with such 'passion', he said that next time he will bring back MORE!!!!

Hopefully, TW will bring back some sushi today..haha

My favourite peas... as u can see..only the skins are left...haha..I have eaten all the peas...

Sushi....yum yum

More peas...with the bottle beside it...

sushi...

2006-08-05T09:09:00.000-07:00

WHOA...thank God...I tried to sign in just now but couldn't becuz it said tat my cookies has been disabled....hmm...

This post...nothing much...haha..supposed to go hiking somewhere in the Yorkshire dales but Paul said that TW is not feeling well so the plan will be postponed to next saturday..

Paul asked me if I know where is Ingleton Waterfalls...I dunno..hehe..then he said that next saturday go there...7 waterfalls altogether...can't wait! Paul drivin btw...hehe..

kla...my sushi pics above..I made sushi today...Val asked Alex to bring some sushi-making stuff so that she can teach TW and me how to make sushi...turned out be that Serene joined in and learning how to make as well.
The sushi is I made one..eheh..the pics...

hot water bottle

2006-08-03T15:37:00.000-07:00

Haven't been updating lately...

hehe..

Was pretty tired for the past few days...aihh...so ended up sleeping for 4 hours this afternoon. Even then, I am still feeling pretty sleepy now....aih...

Lately, the weather has gotten colder....lolss...it was super SUPER hot last week...but this week, it's like winter again....
I realised the advantages of having a hot water bottle..haha...had been great using it if only I can avoid the 'burnt plastic smell'....I guessed I am not supposed to put really boiling hot water into the plastic bottle...hmm...so have learnt to use water which is near boiling point instead...haha..

Again..one week has passed....so fast!!!...

Ai Shin is going to Singapore tommorow for the next one month. She will be doing her electives there...and heard that it's pretty good...hopefully, I can do my electives there in the future. Would be able to learn a lot of things from the singapore heart hospital (? I think there is one such hosp in singapore..haha) and the general hospital in singapore...

WL's advice to Ai Shin was...''when u meet the singapore medical students, think that there is nothing wrong with u...and that u are normal..but try to give Leeds a good name as in make sure that u can answer the questions that they asked..''

Wahman...sounds stressful hor...WL said that the singapore medical students are so studious...lols...nerds?? They know so much....but the bad thing is that most of them do not dare to voice out their opinions (something like that)...
But he said that when Ai Shin comes back, she will be different...as in she will learn a lot from the attachment there....
She said that she will be going to Taiwan for holiday as well because another friend of hers will be doing her attachment in Taiwan. WL said that Taiwan's heart speciality is well-known and is the best in the world....wow....

Anyway, going to sleep...can hardly open my eyes liao...

signing off..
11.45pm

duvets...

2006-08-01T03:31:00.000-07:00

As u know, TW is workin as a chef in Si Sushi. He goes to work at 10am, whereas I go home at 9.45am...so it's without fail that I will meet him on the stretch of road on my way home...haha...and it's always the same place....haha...somewhere near the bridge above the highway.

Yesterday, I did not had the chance to talk to him..so this morning, he was telling me that he will try to ask for me today whether Si Sushi needs anymore waitress. He said that yesterday there was only one waitress on shift and he was wondering what happened to all the other waitresses...

Hopefully, he will come home with good news tonight...

I have a yogurt addiction....eating yogurt for breakfast every morning...and I cannot stop eating yogurt! Lols....but seems like my weight has gone down slightly...for the past 3 days I had been eating chicken porridge and yogurt...

Once, I was talking to TW, I was so bored that I ate 5 clementines...hahaha....
I think that's the only fruit I have eaten for the month....*wide-eyed stare*...haha

It has been raining a lot for the past few days..and the temperature's dropping...
At least it's not so hot at night that I have to kick my duvet off the bed every night...I did not kick off intentionally...I remembered sleeping with my duvet on...when I woke up, everything is on the floor....duvet and sometimes my pillows...
God knows how I 'wrestled' on the bed..maybe I should put a camcoder on the table overnight and see how I sleep....how did the duvet actually flew off the bed..

anyways,

signing off..

11.40am

burns..

2006-07-31T20:14:00.000-07:00

Slept at 7pm...meant to be a short nap which turned out to be 2 hours nap...then decided to just continue on sleeping then...woke up at 3am....eat and did all the random stuff and now blogging again...

I played football again after church last sunday. Out of 10people, 7 were doctors....wahman...WL(Plastic surgeon), Vincent (going to do something on liver), Ken wu(kidney), Najib, Taufid, me(haha...not yet...), Paul(future cardio)

Sticking with doctors have its pros....when Benjamin started to have blisters on his hand (well, had no idea what he did till he had hot oil splattered on his arm), he suddenly called Jean while playing football 2 sundays ago asking her what to do with the blisters. He said he had 14 blisters on his arm.. he had no idea what to do with them..

He said he put colgate on them...and WL went "what...that is like the least u shud do...becuz colgate makes the wound hurts even more...''

I didn't know that...Even then, I would not be so stupid to do that also...haha...I heard of putting colgate on burns but I think it's a myth becuz colgate doesn't help with the healing...

WL then made fun of Ben (LOLS....so bad...ahhaha)...he said that unless Ben intends to 'brush' his burn after putting on colgate....HAHAH....(as in brushing teeth)...hahaha...

Anyway, they recommended running under cold water...but then realised that Ben burnt his arm the day before...and therefore blisters the day after....

So...they said that he should pop the blisters (of course with sterilised stuff) and then apply medicine...and wrap it up....to prevent infection.

Anyways...
I guessed Vincent went to see Ben after football but seemed stuck himself...and called WL to make sure that he was doing the right thing....cuz WL is the expert in burns....plastic surgeon mar...does skin grafts and all...

Oopss..feeling sleepy again...going back to bed...

signing off..
4.30am

Nothing to blog about..

2006-07-30T04:05:00.000-07:00

It a surprising fact that my fishes are still well and alive though I have not changed the water for a month??? Haha...the water is still so surprisingly CLEAR!
Sometimes, I even forgot to feed the fishes for 2 days....still they are alive...haha..sounds as if I am trying to kill them....hmm..

Nothing to blog....lols...WL is going to attend some british people wedding ceremony today...so no football for today...sigh...

Wahlau..really nothing to blog...

signing off..
12.10pm

cell outing again...

2006-07-29T12:11:00.000-07:00

Today,

I vaguely heard Ken talking to Serene in my sleep...they were talking about something WL..something like going to White Rose Centre..
Then I heard 12.30pm...

Then Ken went to work...

At 11.30am, Ken suddenly phoned me and told me to get ready...
He said that WL will be coming to fetch at 12.30pm..so wait at parkinson steps...

We went to White Rose Centre in Leeds as a cell...a shopping centre for those who dun know...It was pretty big...probably three times smaller than midvalley...but considered big..

We went to sainsburys in WRC...lols.....of all places...haha....
The things there were surprisingly cheap! They seemed to be in a rush...duh! No...It seems to be WL only who is in a rush to get out of WRC...it is well-known that WL doesn't like shopping...
So, I managed to grab eggs!! sounds crazy I know...haha...15 for 1pound! so cheap! Morrisons sells 18 for 1.64pounds...

So I grabbed 30!

Haha....the things there are so incredibly cheap esp those on offer...I want to go back there again but that means that I will have to take bus number 2...(just in case I forget...then I can reflect what I wrote on my blog...haha)...

Incredibly...after WRC....

We unexpectedly had a change of plans....ended up in Roundhay Park...LOLS...

Roundhay park is amazingly huge...and beautiful...
My first time there...
And we had a great time of sharing...well, I guessed most of the time I was talking....non-stop...ahhaha..
Then, we stopped by lakeland...a restaurant?? Dunno wat it's called...but yea...Jean treated me to Chocolate milkshake....wahman...there goes my diet....plunging...haha...I c myself back to my fat state soon...

A chocolate milkshake...how long will it take for me to burn off the extra calories...

anyway,

I hope that the hiking next saturday will materialise!

hehe...
and I am getting my 30pounds this monday!! Woohoo...for the OSCE presentation thingy....
Godfrey (the statistician of medical school) sent me an email telling me that my presentation was very good and that it was given a straight pass by the China representatives...also he said that how much he appreciated my effort put into the presentation...*blush*

oh ya...we have to take statistic as one of our modules in our second year...duh! And I had been thinking....Godfrey is the statistician of medical school....dun tell me.....that he will be teaching us statistics in our second year!!!

Wahman....haha

Well...he is a nice guy...pretty ok...except that he is pretty weird that at times...eg...he asked me a question..and when I answered him, he said nothing...and seemed to be staring blankly into space....hmmm...

Anyway...it was great volunteering myself anyway....get to know the dean of medical school and the statistician as well...hahah
and feel how OSCE is like!
can still remember the script in my head! hahah....+ the OSCE DVD that I viewed is an examiner training OSCE video....wahman...haha...so I know how OSCE is marked??

But not much was revealed in the DVD anyway...haha..

Going to cook my porridge which will last for the next 3 days.

signing off...
8.25pm

blogging3

2006-07-28T15:59:00.000-07:00

Si sushi wants to hire chefs...but they dun wan female!!!!!!!!!!! Reason: cuz females does work very slowly!!! But I am different!!! Grrrr...

Still am in the process of bugging TW n hopefully Alex to get me in...even though a trial...
TW said tat they are discussing about 'firing' a waitress...so hopefully...hahahah....I can get in...HOPEFULLY....

Anyway, I managed to get hold of the book (250 cases in clinical medicine) that Chin Tuan (eye surgeon who just moved to Plymouth) recommended me to read....for my MRCP....still far...LOLSS...what am I doing...but yea...am copying the book..ahem...becuz printing and photocopying is too ex....so copy by hand...maybe when cannot stand it then I type...actually typing is faster....hmm...

Well...the book is a good book...haha...

TW asked Paul to go hiking next saturday....so I shun4 bian4 asked Paul if I can come along..ahha....cuz Paul is driving..so why not...hehe...then get free ride go hiking somewhere in the Yorkshire Dales.....exercise...unfortunately, hiking...I have no stamina....last time I went to Malham, I was the first to give up...lols...halfway up the mountain, my lungs couldn't take it anymore...
Dunno why is it always have to be me who is short of breath....my legs can resist but my lungs refused to co-operate...

So have to rest halfway up the mountain...ahahhaha....

Better than nothing....the view is nice...so worth the climb..

Anyway,

goin to sleep....for some reason, my right leg feels so suan1....

signing off...
12am

sigh...

2006-07-27T15:55:00.000-07:00

I applied for the joblink events team member job....hopefully I will get it...sigh..

TW got a job at si sushi...so lucky....Alex helped introduced him in....
Si sushi and yo sushi are two different sushi shops...just in case people reading my blog gets confused. The one I WAS supposed to work in was Yo sushi...
Unfortunately, Yo sushi are trying to cut cost at the moment so I have to wait till Valerie comes back in a week time before she sees Yo sushi condition....and whether I can still work for the remaining one month summer break I have left.

But one thing I am sure of is that in my second year summer hols, I can have a summer job lasting for 8 weeks. The job tat Jean did in her second year hols...something to do with statistics. She said that it's pretty easy to get it...and the pay is ok...1200pounds around there...
That job is only meant for second year medics onwards...so me first year nia...not eligible..sigh....first year...so limited....nobody wants a first year to work with them...most employers want mature students....sigh..

so sien..

I cannot work in si sushi because they only want to employ guy chefs....I am not a guy...sigh....a disadvantage being female....
Hopefully God will give me some random job before term starts and hell begins...

Have seen second year's work pile....LOLSSS....so tough...the brain and all in the first term of second year...tough work man...

Maybe I should read my embryology a bit cuz my foundation in embryology really terrible...

Anyway,

signing off..
12am..
sleep...

the heavenly man

2006-07-26T16:35:00.000-07:00

I finally finished reading The Heavenly Man in less than 10 hours.

It has been an inspiring book...with many lessons and 'teachings'...

God has done so much in Bro Yun's life...so many miracles...so many healings...and emphasises how important it is to read God's word + to pray.

The book kor gave me ''captivating'' was only read halfway...hope to finish it soon.

I always see Ken and Serene + TW watching TV...
After 'training' for 3 years without TV, I can survive without one...the thing is that I do not like to watch the TV anymore...Sitting in front of the TV makes me feel uneasy and pointless...
It's like watching a whole load of rubbish other than watching the weather forecast and news of course...

Normally, Ken and serene would cook with the TV on regardless they are watching or not. Then, they will eat watching the TV for a long time...go back to their rooms and continue watching TV....lols...

Me ler...I cook fast...I have a habit of not spending too much time in the kitchen + toilet...which reminded me of TW's friend who came here to take a bath when her shower broke down...wahman...all I heard was the shower running for 50 minutes and I nearly wanted to go and check to see if there is something wrong in the shower....lols....terrible....How can people spend such LONG TIME in the shower???

TV....TW will switch on the TV for no apparent reason and not watching it...lolsss....

I prefer to go online...haha....and do some other stuff rather than rotting away in front of the TV / watching movies...
even the whole load of movies that TW has burned into cds are still on my table....I simply cannot bring myself to watch them...unless someone forced me to...hahaha....that's gonna be a hell lot of time wasted sitting in front of the laptop watching stuff....

anyway,

sleep...

signing off..
12.50am

diet and football

2006-07-24T13:38:00.000-07:00

My diet was ok today...

Skipped lunch...and breakfast...ahaha...usually I eat lunch...but today, I 'tied' my stomach...drink water only...

Dinner, I ate the leftover curry yesterday and fried the rice that was given by Melati City.

The thing is that I am so surprised at how my appetite has shrunk...I ate only half the plate and I started feeling guilty. So I gave half the plate of fried rice and half of the chicken curry to TW...
I am cutting down on rice...not eating more than half a plate. I am eating oats in the afternoon...dinner...vege and chicken...haha...oh ya...and the leftover rice...still have to fry them for the next 2 days.

Rice is the fattening food...lols...so cutting down on rice would not caused any deficiency in any minerals...hehe....give all to TW....make him fat...he so thin...

I desire to see myself back to the normal 55kg...

I missed the time I entered college...and Esther's friends were saying how thin I was...thin as in slim...now I am a fat FAT PIG.....
Well, looks like that Esther is thin and I am fat....the opposite has occurred!!! It used to be Esther who was overweight...now it's my turn to get fat and also LOSE WEIGHT!!!!

I WILL LOSE ALL MY EXTRA WEIGHT BY THE END OF DECEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Losing 10kg in 2 months is risky and not good. so a 5 months interval is more 'safe'...now 67kg.....I HAVE TO BE 57KG by the end of december!!!!!!!!

Why I WANT to lose weight....so that I can wear all my clothes again...I was so shocked when I could not ahem....zip up the long pants that I bought in KL last time. I could wear it before I came to UK...now I cannot....so I MUST LOSE WEIGHT....

I am also pretty surprised at my ability to control temptations lately....Jean was 'persuading' me to go watch movie...but I keep saying no...cuz ermm...and lots of excuse came blurting out....

I am trying hard to control everything that has gone haywire for the past few months..hopefully...everything will be back to normal again when Janice comes...
Well, I think when Janice comes, the diet will be more effective cuz Janice can help me finish all the food....

Now, I am fat becuz it is so SO HARD to cook a person's portion.

I always end up eating two people's portion.

Football every sunday until summer ends...I love football....ahhaha...
especially blocking and kicking the ball out of David and TW's way....hahha...

Yesterday's football, I managed to kick the ball out of David and TW's way (both of them were in the same team) thrice...They were ahemm...surprisingly running towards each other...David with the ball...David was yelling at TW to keep me out of the way....before they knew it, HAHHAHA...the ball was kicked away by me....
Then David went :''HAIYO...TW....I told you to keep stephanie out of my way already loh....''

HAHHAA...

The other incident was when...I managed to kick the ball away...and David went ''wahman....''

The third incident was when I kicked the ball, David went:''wahman....How come got something black flew past...so scary...(cuz I was wearing black that day)...

Hahahha...David very funny and cute la....haha....all the comments he made so funny....also he is not that hmm.....'swift' compared to others...so it was 'easier' for me to 'attack' him and get the ball away....TW is also easier to tackle....

Anyway,

My leg feeling itchy now....seems like there are mosquitoes around...though I cannot see any...hmmmm

signing off...
10pm

blogging2

2006-07-23T16:57:00.000-07:00

grrr....I cannot sign into Yahoo mail...idiot...

Today went to church...sigh...

Once again...I feel tat not having Andrew around is so different.

We sang the song 'In Christ'....Nobody jumped when we sung the part 'in christ we have everything.' Last time, I have Andrew to jump with me....now jumping alone is so damn weird and so, I didn't jump all because I was self-conscious.

Even the song 'one way' was sung so damn unlively....sigh...

Anyway, I have gotten the new Hillsong cd from Vincent. Hehe....

Most of the songs are nice...some are not...

Ahem...Kyle has noticed that I have been avoiding him...
Whenever he signs into msn, I will appear offline instantly...I dunno why..but talking to him just gives me the feeling of so sien....
sigh...
He asked me whether I want to meet him tomoro since he is coming down to Leeds. I said 'erm...I need to do something...'
He replied instantly :'are you avoiding me?'
Wahman...I was shocked...I didn't expected such a straightforward question.

So I gave a hell lot of excuse like 'I am in a reserve mode in the moment.'

Which is partly true and not.

True becuz it's the end of the month and it's time for ahem....anyway...

partly not true becuz I actually have the intention of avoiding him. lols....I just don't feel like talking to him at the moment...dunno why...but it's just the sien feeling....

Today after football, had dinner with Ken, ser, TW, WL and Jean. Well, before the dinner, on our way home from football, WL 's car broke down in the middle of the road...LOLS...u know why????? Cuz he didn't pump petrol and so the car can no longer move anymore....haha....so stranded on the road till Vincent came to help. Went to buy some petrol...enuf for WL to drive to a petrol station and pump to full tank...

haha...

Dinner was cool....we all cooked a dish...Then, we all talked till late...11.30pm...shared quite a lot of things...and hahhaha...we also mentioned about kor in the middle of the conversation...something about ahem....hahahah...his voice and encounter weekend..something about all the pent-up words he wanted to say......it was quite funny...but I am too tired to recall wat was said....

It was funny anyway...ahhahaha

The dinner was a last minute thing...WL didn't cook..haha..he ordered take-away and bought sprite...jean made sushi...yum yum....serene and Ken cooked something which I cannot recall...something to do with potatoes and stuff...TW cooked kangkung and beef...me ler...chicken curry...

If my heart has grown cold,
There your love will unfold,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
When I'm blind to my way,
There Your spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Oceans will part,
nations come.
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise,
Glory shown,
In my life Your will me done.

Present suffering may pass,
Lord Your mercy will last,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
And my heart will find praise,
I'll delight in Your way,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Jesus open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

signing off...
1.15am

haihh...

2006-07-22T17:47:00.000-07:00

Staying with Val is exactly like the experience of staying with my cousin when we were in KL.

Now Val is on europe tour. So I do not fear of her coming peeping at what I am typing here. Somehow, she is quite kaypoh when she sees me writing my blog. Pretending to talk to me right behind my laptop and peeping quite obviously at my blog.

Lols...

Val has a character which is like a photocopy of my cousin. My cousin loves to wear 'sexy' clothes. Tubes and all...fashion....straightening/curling hair...flirt!....Shopping for clothes....staying in a place for a very long time (for eg...Yo sushi...)

Basically everything is almost the same...literally the same...which may explains why I can get used to Val staying with me. Cuz she is like my cousin and I lived with her for one and a half years in our hot swelting room in KL.

Even though their characters are not the very 'nice' ones, they have kind hearts.

Val and my cousin are almost the same....they like to take my things without asking....but even then, they treat me so nicely...Val cooked twice for me...shared the salmon that a guy gave her early in the morning for breakfast with me....shared cookies with me and TW....didn't complain (she did...but didn't really ask much then) when I charged her 200 for staying in my room for one and half months, including rent and bills....she is almost literally not at home all the time....now on europe tour for 2 weeks + was in scotland for a week. 3 weeks altogether. I feel really bad charging her extra 50 for not having her in the room.

She also took me to Yo sushi(her workplace) to eat for free! Because she work there mar...

Sigh...

Her things has been shipped back to Msia so the room is pretty empty at the moment.

My things are all hidden away..haha...so ahem...I will take another photo of my room soon...there are some more changes with my room as in the movement of new furniture...having a new table in the room...moving the shoe rack away....I like the drawers to be situated under the mirror...strategic. I guessed all the furniture are placed rather strategically and is convenient indeed.

I feel bad that I have not treated Val nice enuf in my opinion. I am ahem...rather cold...lols....and also complain quite a lot about other things...but there are also nights where we shared things with each other. I guessed after quite some time, she picked up some of my character, as in she asked for my permission before using my things and she made a 'wonderful' (as in she has begun to understand my character) comment when she wanted to borrow the 'qi1 feng1 you2' from me ''I know u want to use it for 5 years, so I won't borrow it from you to bring to Europe.'' Later, she found her own qi1 feng1 you2 in her bag....lols...then why did she wanted to borrow from me earlier?

Lately, for some reason, I have became very calculative once again...I dunno what have gotten into me but I suan4 so much...lols....people asked for paracetamol, I gave them one only...
I hardly eat medicine...in fact, I didn't eat any medicine at all for the past one year...other than one antihistamine becuz of ahem....hahaha...Anyway, looking at my panadol, gonna expire soon too...haha...2008...still far...but I have loads left....keep my liver healthy..hehe..dun eat medicine.

and also...I have became slightly niao1 ji1 also...lols....Eg, Jiyi asked me if I can lend her an umbrella cuz it was raining. I said I only have one (a lie) and she said she will return me later when she comes back from Morrisons. However, when she went into my room, she found a black umbrella (*slapped forehead*...accidentally forgot to hide it away) and said she will take the black one instead of the green one. She thought it was Val's umbrella.
I said it is mine...

she went 'huh..I thought u said u had only one umbrella'.....

'errrr....sorry...I used the black umbrella for hiding from the sun and the green one when it rains.'

That is a half lie and half not....lols...not a lie cuz the black umbrella is small and cannot really hide my whole torso from the rain....hahah...
a lie becuz I only use the black one even though it is small...small but convenient.

The green one is just slightly bigger but still convenient except that I feel that it doesn't effectively hide me from the sun....lols....

U know it's hot lately....31-33 degrees...except that for the past two days, it had been raining. I woke up briefly this morning becuz of a thunderstorm...so scary...haha...

TW has been behaving very VERY funny these few days.
He has been ignoring me..ahem...not only me...Ken and serene....
We called him to play dai tee(card game), he dun want.
He ate Flames today...tsk tsk...not healthy...truthfully, very fattening esp for the coronary arteries.
He went to cell alone without telling us (me, Ken n Serene). He was persuading me to go for fifteen minutes...haha...then gave up and went back to his room. Ken and serene were there and were wondering whether we shud go or not. TW told us that he didn't want to go to cell. However, he disappeared silently. Ken later went to his room and found him missing...and realised that he went to cell alone...wahman...so in the end, we all went to cell.

I wonder how can he stay in his room 24/7....never go out...seldom cook (so seldom that sometimes I wonder if he knows how to cook...) Haha...shud have seen him slaughter the chicken...so gentle...LOLS...and took such a LONG TIME (one hour) to cut up the whole chicken...he wanted to de-skin it first which I have no idea why.

He has funny habits which Ken, Ser and I are pretty frustrated about. Our personalities and characters totally don't fit.
At least I can mix pretty well with Mel, Ken and Ser. But with TW, it is quite a struggle to understand him sometimes.

Hmm..and also...I am very angry about something. I went to the kitchen just now and found that someone has used my Tefal pan without washing it!!!!! I am very particular about cleanliness (no idea when have I transformed to become like this...guessed after I worked as a cleaner)...I saw my pan hanging at the usual place....had no further thoughts...I thought it was clean.
Then, I wanted to fry my tomatoes...took my pan....AND LOLS....the handle and the bottom back of the pan was so SO OILY....literally the whole pan was oily!!!

'okay...the back part is oily...maybe the person forgot to wash the back and hang it on the hook...the front part should be washed.' I thought to myself.

Turned to the front....OMGOMGOMG....so oily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Obviously someone has not washed the pan AT ALL and hung it on the hook. WHo on earth is this ridiculous person. Ahem...Mel knows my character...he looks after my things if he uses them...then it is his gf who is notorious of being dirty.

GGRRRRR...

Enuf is enuf.... I need my Tefal pan long term....no way I am going to hang my pan or leave my plates on the dishholder anymore. Actually I gave a warning before...not really a warning...but a 'instruction'....
I told Mel that if he uses my rice-cooker, he have to dry it etc before he switches it on.
Anyway, they dun use my rice-cooker anymore cuz too many 'rules and regulations'....haha...they are using YungKit's rice cooker.
But I did 'instruct' them that my things have to last for long time, so use them properly.

Since the rule wasn't obeyed.

I collected every single thing in the kitchen which belonged to me and put them away, as in in drawers and all where people DEFINITELY will not be able to use them. Took my rice-cooker upstairs. Cleared everything away. I know Mel and his gf will be kinda shocked when they cook tmr cuz I know that they have been using my plates (but so far, my plates were properly taken care of)...just that I was very VERY disappointed at how my pan was looked after. It may be TW who did it but I dun think so cuz I dun think he ate dinner....

Hmmm....

ANyway, whoever fault it is, I am not going to display my things in public area anymore...

SIgh....

Maybe that explains why I have became rather selfish these few days. In fact, very selfish.

SIgh...

It's just me...I do not like people to use my things without my permission. They would just have to respect me in that area. Not that I do not lend people things, they have to get my permission and normally followed by instructions on how to use it properly.
Very particular about people breaking or destroying my things.

O Lord, You search me..
You know my ways,
even when I fail You,
I know You love me,

Your holy presence,
Surrounded me.
In every season,
I know You love me,
I know You love me.

At the cross I bow my knees,
where your blood was shed for me,
there is no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave,
Glory fills the highest place,
what can separate me now.

You go before me,
You shield my way.
Your hand upon me,
I know You love me.

And when the earth fades,
Falls from my eyes.
You stepped before me,
I know You love me....

sleepy...

signing off...
2.40am

blogging

2006-07-22T12:56:00.000-07:00

lately I have been to lazy to update my blog. Even before my dad told me that he has been reading my blog all these while, I have been blogging less frequently.I think daddy knows all my blogs url using my laptop IP or something like that...hahhaa....dunno...but I guessed so....Lols...Have been addicted to drawing lately. Drawing anatomy diagrams and sticking on housemate's doors. Actually it started with a picture of a skull. I labelled it as TW's skull and then sticked it on his door. I thought he will crush it and throw it away. But surprisingly he didn't. He left it hanging on the door till today and probably until he leaves. He also told Ken that the pic very nice...lols...so that kind of 'inspired' me to draw more....so now...hahah...almost every part of the body is on his door.....

HAHAHA....

Today went to Manchester as a cell. Wee Leon drove us there...hehe...we walked around the city centre. A lot of sales. I bought my sandals at Clarks for 15 pounds. Soft leather. In the end bought the leather cream also...lols...she said can keep the leather soft always.The boots I bought at clarks last time was good. I have been using it even though it is summer...lols...but getting too hot lately + the sandals that Janice gave me when she came to UK was not good. The bottom of the sandals was so hard that it crack my feet + the sandals keep slipping off my feet + the sides of the shoe is hard + the bottom is falling off..So now...haha...the bottom is soft leather....should last long I hope. Looks pretty strong too..heh...The boots is still alive...haha...hope it will be alive for a long time...That's all I bought in Manchester...haha..The 'graduation photos' in my blog...lols...the graduation clothes is Valerie's one....she wanted to return them to the uni so I quickly borrowed it from her and took a few pictures with it...ahaha...

Oh ya...yesterday the paid volunteer thingy...Lolss...as if my partner and I are superstars...haha....when we went up to present, the china representatives keep taking photos of us...make me slightly panic only..lols...The medical school gave them scoresheets to mark MY presentation and pretend as if they are examiners...sighh..Total mark for an OSCE station is 30. The highest mark that was given was 25. The lowest was 18. Lols....below 16 is fail. They also gave grades. 5 gave me C, 12 gave me B. Phew..Heard the dean said..." you are all very nice examiners"....haha...That was the first time the dean touched me n talked to me...*blush*...it's a her....and her grip is quite firm....haha....forgot to mentioned that the presentation was ok...if it was not becuz I was quite nervous and my 'chinese grammar' went a bit haywire at the end of the presentation...but guessed overall it was ok...just that it's not that up to the standard that some of the chinese 'examiners' wanted...haha

I left a tag in Andrew Lee's blogspot. Someone from CHC....Dunno who...but I just left a tag in his chatterbox. I was quite surprised that such a message can inspire a person so much....heh.....he blogged about it in his entry somemore....shows how much he appreciated it I guessed...

Anyway..

signing off..

7pm.

hehe

2006-07-22T11:11:00.000-07:00

"I was really encouraged by the tag made by Steph earlier on....

I may not know who you are, but certainly, that one statement touched me in a way and changed my day completely...."

Andrew Lee...

My old blog has been updated...go read..haha

thoughts and songs

2006-07-18T13:44:00.000-07:00

I make a vow
My life will always honour you
Whether I live or die
I belong to Him
He bore my sin
I owe this life to my saving King

Hallelujah,
I am not my own
You are in control
Hallelujah

For me to live is christ
And to die is gain
No matter what price i pay
I choose to give this life away
Only by the cross I am saved

Hillsong new album: mighty to God.
Song: at the cross.
One of the songs I love most.
Hear...It's so hard to be able to hear the latest album's song esp the WHOLE song on the net...

http://wetheinseparable.blogspot.com/2005_06_01_wetheinseparable_archive.html

signing off...
btw I still update my old blog

sien2

2006-07-18T02:38:00.000-07:00

A short post continuing from yesterday...haha...Was ended quite abruptly becuz I wanted to cook.

Just to avoid misunderstanding and people from being overly cautious when talking to me..hehe...I only get VERY annoyed when I am blamed for something which is half my fault and half not my fault. For eg the bike pedal that came off Kyle's bike. It fell off becuz of the bike was not used for exceptionally long time and so things has rusted and degraded. So it fell off soon after I rode the bike. I would say that it's mostly the bike's fault but also my fault becuz if I have not ridden it, the pedal would not have loosen.
The bikes in my house are not that lousy...lol...the pedal don't fall off just like that...lols....so I reckon it's the bike's fault...
and so...when Kyle went...that I CAUSED the pedal to fall off WHEN I RODE it, I get VERY annoyed...

Also, I don't like it when I have said that I do not want to play, but still the person keeps forcing me to do the things that I do not like to do. For eg, yesterday, Kyle was forcing me to play online scrabble with him. He sent me the link before a week ago. The game require me to sign up and said that they will send me an activation code. I waited for the code to arrive in my mailbox but nothing came. This time, Kyle bugged me to play again...lols...I told him that it is so troublesome but he insisted...so sien...so I went to sign up again.. and the same thing happened...I was VERY annoyed and infuriated....(maybe becuz the sun is really annoying...shone straight on my face...)...so I didn't reply Kyle anymore and he went offline...

sien...

Anyway, I also very sien with the paid volunteer thingy. This friday my partner and I have to re-enact an OSCE scene in Mandarin. The person-in-charge only informed me this morning that there is a meeting...LOLSSS...and said that he preferred me to come...grrr...why not informed me earlier...mafan...+ I dunno how much pay I will get for all the trouble + this 5 min acting will get....

sien la..

anyway,

signing off..
11am

annoyed

2006-07-17T08:39:00.000-07:00

I am so so annoyed...

Kyle always make me annoyed for some reason...sigh....

He likes to exaggerate at times, though more trustworthy compared to Marc.

Also he likes to boast which makes me utterly annoyed...I dislike people who makes false promises + boast...

He said something like going bowling tonight and that he is going to catch the train tonight to come over to leeds...LOLS....I told him that I cannot...I have something on..which is true and not true...lol...tonight may have dinner at WL's place...
Then he said...he forgot that he has a dinner with his dad. LOLS....so say if I agreed, he is going to fly my aeroplane.

He is not certain at times which makes me annoyed...

Then he said he wants to watch superman with me tomoro. I said can also...

But at the end of the comversation, he says :''see me on wednesday''...cuz he said he wants to go bike riding with me in Hyde Park this wednesday. Hmm...I dunno if this promise can be fulfilled or not...lols..

Talking about annoyed...

Let me reflect last thursday's BBQ...

When I wanted to borrow the bike from Alberto (kor's friend), kor went telling Alberto..:''U sure u want to lend her..' and kor said something like the bike may fall apart...
something like that....

I was also rather annoyed...but thank God kor changed the topic...God knows how much I want to ride a bike for so so long....and when the chance came, kor said that...and it nearly made me not able to ride it becuz Alberto may feel apprehensive after hearing that and won't let me ride anymore.

But kor was 'let off' when he said "I thought U wanted to ride the bike" after a short while of silence...

But undoubtly was annoyed for a slight moment....but the annoyment was not as bad as what Kyle said after I rode the bike.

When I was apologising to Alberto becuz I wasn't sure whether I spoilt the bike or not, Kyle said :''Do you know that she made the pedal on my bike fall off??'' etc...he said some more things which I can hardly remember.

I would say that I was SUPER annoyed at that statement...I HATE people bringing up the past for some reason....if were to HUMILIATE me....

I was undoubtly angered at that statement. I have felt bad making the pedal fall off...and hey...it's not really my fault k....blame that the bike has not been ridden for a long time and the screw disintegrated...so what has that got to do with me??? Just that when I rode Kyle's bike, I was so unlucky to experience 'breaking' someone's bike not by my own fault...

That's just me...dislike my past being brought up ESP WHEN I FEEL BAD about it....if the past is brought up, it has to be done by me...by my own will and 'permission'...lols...

Anyway...

enuf of complaining..lols...just that I am feeling annoyed by many things right now...lols...

signing off..
5pm

my mundane life...haha

2006-07-17T02:27:00.000-07:00

I still update my old blog once a while, just that this blog is more of a heartfelt blog...hahahha...wrong vocab...don't care...

Yesterday, went to church. Paul was the worship leader. He called TW up to do the actions for 'I have got heaven on the inside of me'. TW was not that good...lol...it was only then Andrew's presence was sorely missed....Church seems to be slightly quieter without Andrew around. Even if I want to jump during worship, I felt slightly awkward. Sigh...

A topic on different personalities was brought up by kor. Talking about different personalities, my parents' personalities are 80% different too...And it was the personalities that makes them special...as in my dad is not organised, but my mum is... so it is always my mum who has a schedule with us...for eg, cleaning the house...always my mum who 'order' us to do the cleaning....it's my dad who ask us to cook...

My dad is quite a spendthrift but my mum is not...so my mum controls all the money and so we can have today (education)...My dad said:''without my mum, we will have 3 mercedes, a one million worth house with empty pockets and dunno what to do with the 6 of us."....so without their different characters, our house would have been a disaster too....

Just that the only thing I used to see as a conflict is spiritual wise....my dad is devoted but my mum is not very....so if my dad goes to church too often, my mum will complain....but my dad will tolerate everything my mum said.

My mum said before, everybody has their own strong points and weaknesses. It's just whether we can tolerate each other's weaknesses or not....if cannot, then don't think of having a relationship with that person. Every individual have their own differences....can u find a perfect couple with similar personalities? Very few I have seen....not that it is not possible...

I am not saying that I want to enter a relationship. I feel that I am still young (though not really...coming to 21 soon) and not that very mature enuf to handle one...plus I still want to observe for a few more years to see how everything goes. Who knows the guy that God has destined for me is not in the early future but later...so I would rather wait for God to show me the right one.

Haha....have been pretty bored down with things...till I blog these kinda stuff..

Yesterday played football again. TW hurt his toe...his nail broke *ouch*...and the blood kept coming....quite scary...hehe...so I lent him my antiseptic cream...

Valerie had a friend over for 3 nights. Last night was the first night and already I am not that very happy because it was quite squashy...My pillow and blacket fell on the floor 5 times....sien....I woke up so many times in the middle of the night, with my hand automatically reaching out in the darkness below the bed with my eyes shut...grab anything soft lying on the floor and continued sleeping....

sigh....

Today, my supervisor said tat I am a good girl again....hehe...she thought that I only mopped the hallway from the 11th floor till ground floor...but I also mopped the stairs all the way from the 10th floor to ground floor (so lazy...missed the flight of stairs from the 11th to the 10th...haha)...so I told her I did the front stairs too and her scornful look changed into a smile instantly...lolss...

went to Chin Tuan's BBQ on saturday night. I fell in love with sea bass(A FISH....not a human...haha)....so yummy...Chin said a sea bass is 5.50pounds ....
Expensive but worth the money...because the fish is so so so so so yummy...anything that is yummy is worth my money...haha....How much I love food...not just food, but GOOD and NICE food....hehe...:)

nothing more to say..haha..

signing off...
11.20am...

sien..

2006-07-14T14:49:00.000-07:00

sigh...

Why am I always offending people?? THis week two liao...WL and TW...

sien..

Once again, I skipped cell...dunno why...but just am not in the mood in going. I didn't really missed on purpose also...slept at 4pm after I made TW pissed off...then by the time I woke up, it was already 7pm...I feared that I cannot make it in time for the ice-breaker so I asked Jean to help me do...gave her the idea that William gave me.

Sigh..

After that, I was so lazy to go to cell liao...dunno why...I am always slacking...I can escape church and cell for a period as long as 3 months as I did when I was in KL. Lolss....and now I am already in that 'mode'...lazy to go to church and cell unless I have been trusted with some responsibilities.

Supposed to go to Blackpool tmr..but Kyle so blur...he told me last time that he has tickets for free entrance to Blackpool theme park. However, today, he told me tat the ticket has expired and asked me if I could pay for my own entrance fee..but I am not in the mood to go anywhere tmr + am really stressed + dun feel like spending too much money this week. So, told Kyle I didn't want to go anymore...am really not in the mood to do anything..not in the mood becuz of 2 things:
1) kor has just left for good unless he comes back one day...for some purpose..be it hols or further studies???
2)I had just offended TW..and both of us staying under the same roof will gonna make things difficult...I really didn't mean to tell William about it...just that...sigh...

THinking of kor's presence in Leeds can kinda make me sad...well, maybe the reason for not feeling anything much for the past 2 weeks was probably because I am trying very hard not to think of the memories kor has left behind. But today, Kyle reminded me of the rabbit that we microwaved..it was so funny...Laughed for a while after I reminiscence but turned quickly into sorrow...realising that all these left behind are just going to be memories and that he has left Leeds....sigh..make me cry only...

I am feeling pretty stressed about many things though...time flies...one shot I am left with 2 months of hols before the new hectic term starts...sigh..
stressed because I dunno how to tell TW later how sorry I am...he is so pissed off...I am so stress also that I have made someone mad. He has been ignoring ever since... Well, I dun really care anyway...I can cope on my own just that I have no one to share to anymore other than Valerie.

I dun really know Val last time..but since she stayed here, I have kinda got to know her better. She is pretty nice and friendly...also shared quite a lot of things with me in my room...as time flies, she gets better...I mean we get along a lot better liao...

I find it amazin tat my dad is able to find my previous blog and has been reading ever since...I cannot imagine....all the naughty entries that I have wrote...my parents read it all and yet I was left in the dark...sigh..It was pretty good that they managed to hide the secret that they are reading my blog away for so long...I wouldn't have known about it if it wasn't because of my sis who told me...I would still continue to write naughty entries.

My dad read my blog and made a few comments about the similarities we had..

His comment was:
1) very generous
2) heart is too soft
3) Don't know how to save money
4) Buy a lot of things.
5) Like to eat nice food.
6) Adventurous
7) Mix well with anyone
8) trusting
9)Don't know how to say 'no'
10) emotional
11) my dad was very sensitive when he was young and cry easily.

I have to admit that I am an overly sensitive person n how I hate myself for that.
I think too much...always and will never change unless God changes me.
A small matter can be magnified in great amounts all because I think too much.

Sigh..

I am tired and frustrated.

You know what happened this morning...

I woke up at 6am and forgot that work starts at 7.15am and not 6am... + I read the clock wrongly...woke up...switched off the alarm clocks before they disturb Val's sleep. Then, looking at the clock after doing some stuff, I was shocked and rather lolsss when I realised that I have woke up one hour earlier...

I on the radio alarm clock and went back to sleep.

OMG...Who knows, I heard the clock ring at 7am, off it and went back to lie down for a moment which instantly turned into a 40 minutes nap...
Woke up and found that it is 7.35am!! Immediately, I rushed to work..lucky my supervisor didn't scold me...

I guessed I have been lacking sleep for the past 5 days...slept for an average of 4.5 hours a day all because I have been talking to TW every night...from now onwards, since I have made TW mad, I guessed I can afford to sleep earlier liao...11pm as usual...since we have nothing to say to each other anymore.

sien...

Feel like skipping church this sunday....but I need the new hillsong album songs..

signing off,
11.20pm.
sien....how am I going to tell TW how sorry I am? It's so hard to explain to him in words...and may end up sayin the wrong things...bastard...